what would became of you if you weren't in that battlefield? does that make you a loser? would that make you incompetent? what could've been happen if you weren't riding your horse to protect the innocent? what if that day you protect yourself instead of everybody else? what would happen if you choose a cup of tea for the rest of the day? what would you do? what if you didn't pick up on that dark green cape? will there be a problem if you didn't answer levi's call to join the group? where would you be if you weren't there? will you be thinking of their fate? would you blame yourself? why would you blame yourself?